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Steven 'Sharpteeth' Durante ([personal profile] fingersandteeth) wrote2022-02-21 05:11 pm
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[personal profile] amaure 2020-07-26 08:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Admittedly, I had my skepticism around your claimed friendship with Hythlodaeus. Little did I think you would wish to consort with our kind, given your prolonged prejudice and projected assumptions based on our similarities to that which you are familiar. I chose not to intervene ere I was given ample reason to, Hythlodaeus can indeed choose his own friends, but you must realize that he is naive of mortals and their whims.

He has never navigated a world outside the one we lost. Where structure was defined in certain words, order was known and respected, chaos was naught more than what playful children caused, or for those who favored it as a form of endearment and affection. In many ways, he does not understand this world, does not understand you and yours.

This makes him especially vulnerable to the tricks and cruelties of men. He is not a stupid man, far from it, but intelligence and wisdom works best in the world you know, in a society you are familiar with. There is much he does not know, much I cannot teach him fully. For all his oddities and eccentricities, he is a trusting and caring soul. He comes from a world where you can trust a stranger to be earnest and honest, or at the very least, their deceit will never end in harm.

Forgive me, I suppose I am rambling, babbling like a waterfall. The point is, you had me worried, but now I am less so. You have surprised me, and that is rare. Keep it up.
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[personal profile] amaure 2020-07-26 09:45 pm (UTC)(link)
That is his tried and true method, I would personally know.

You are right, he makes for wonderful company, despite how infuriating he often proves to be. It is a privilege to be fancied by him, so I suggest you do not take this for granted. But, as for the matter of him not making you feel as I assume I do, he has also very limited experience with the mortal world. With just how terrible yours are willing to be to one another. Unfortunately, the longer he is here, the more he will find himself aware.

Now, I do not say thus because I am not giving him credit where it is due, he can understand things, he has a brilliant mind. It is far more that he is inexperienced, just as I would not expect you to know exactly how to act in my society. You would be utterly lost to our customs, our quirks, our beliefs, and our standards. But, unlike with mortal society, your ignorance would not end in your death nor your probable harm.

It surprises me not that you and he have similar minds, though his is far more in control of itself and its urges. Disciplined by Amaurotine morality, which you are decidedly lacking. Yet, if this has proven aught to me, such does not have to be the case.
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[personal profile] amaure 2020-07-27 12:02 am (UTC)(link)
[Sorry, Steven. Condescending is just his natural tone. There's no helping it.]

Morality is not quite something one is born with. There are those who can be naturally inclined towards such, this is true, but more oft than not morality is learned. It is what one believes, how one conducts themselves with others and within their society, what intent guides their actions and the perceived impact. The harm said actions brings, and what they do when they infringe upon these morals, or when they upset the balance.

Hythlodaeus has atypical desires, but how he contends with such desires is morally fueled. Violence is in the heart of all men, and if one is not careful, it will consume them. We ancients are no different, we simply choose to act in the betterment of our peers, rather than to destroy them and ourselves with such abhorrent acts. You too could choose otherwise.

But it does seem you are confused, what you name standards are morals. The two are much the same, the indignation that burns within your bosom when said standards are infringed upon is moral outrage. The more you separate yourself from the group, the more you rob yourself of brotherhood by renaming the very tools you utilize to structure the world you experience, the more you will stray from the path of control and seeing your place within your world.

Solitude--socially, emotionally, and all of that--is no way to live.

As for your apology. It is duly noted. At this time, I cannot truly speak upon it, and it would be churlish of me to misspeak on such a matter. Perhaps a conversation for another time.
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[personal profile] amaure 2020-07-27 02:21 am (UTC)(link)
[The sweet, sweet irony is that so much could have been avoided had this been the Steven he dealt with weeks ago. That things had been left to escalate as they had, that Emet-Selch's fury had risen to the point it has, is a tragedy. Yet, maybe...things did not need to continue this way.

Certainly seems so, with how Steven seems to be humbling himself in such a way. Explaining this away as he is. Perhaps before, all of this would have fallen on deaf ears, but now he has more reason to actually listen. Considering it seems Steven is willing to as well.]


Perhaps this is indeed a conversation for now. Memories are a sacred thing to me and mine. We live our lives, gathering knowledge, creating memories, much as you mortals do. But our memories, they span our entire lives, our long, eternal lives. We cherish every moment, mourn every tragedy, our memories are as present to us as this moment here and now is. I have little interest in getting into the intricacies of it all with you, but know that to alter or take away the memories of me or mine is a most grievous sin.

Have you ever been forgotten, Steven? Have you ever had memories plucked from the minds of the ones you love, had others wearing faces so achingly familiar to you stare past you, as if you never existed? Our memories make who we are, and to alter them, is to change the very foundation of a person. To rob someone of their knowledge is an egregious violation of selfhood.

I will take some time to think this over, but what stays my hand at this precise moment is that I wish to give Tyler the chance to speak his piece. I would hear from him his thoughts, his feelings, and his justifications. It is not that I do not believe what you tell me, but this is what I require. From there, I will make my judgment of what Tyler owes.

Hythlodaeus is precious to me, I have lost him once already, I will not lose him again because of mortals who choose to act as feral beasts in the face of civility. He does not deserve this, nor did he deserve his death to begin with. His time here should not be one of suffering.


[He's decided to not touch on that whole "actions are more important than intentions". Mainly because he does not need to get into a morality debate at the moment.]
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[personal profile] amaure 2020-07-27 04:05 am (UTC)(link)
You may not remember it, but what you bore witness to was the end of my people and the world as I had once knew it. You had used Hythlodaeus' deceased form to attempt to hurt me—but I have relived that memory thousands of times, I know it backwards and forwards. I know the placement of every corpse, each terminus beast that would appear and slaughter my people, the scent of burnt flesh, of spilled blood, every scream and dying gasp...

I know Hythlodaeus had not died then, and thus I knew there was an interloper.

There is one thing I wish to know: was it worth it to break our unspoken ceasefire? I had left you and yours well enough alone, I had respected your wishes. You do realize that when something of this nature is broken, you are ensuring that trust cannot be reforged, yes?

If not for this act of kindness on your end towards Hythlodaeus, I would have believed you naught more than a rabid dog, one that I would have to keep in check ere he snaps his foaming jaws at me should I be folly enough to lower my guard again.
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[personal profile] amaure 2020-07-27 05:41 am (UTC)(link)
By the time of your assault, Tyler and I had become civil. The run in you speak of only happened because of what you had done to me. Tyler had seen the state I was in, and approached me. Unfortunately, the conversation did not go well, but such is the way of things. Also, may I be so bold to say that I find it rather condescending and likewise dismissive of Tyler's own agency when both you and Lydia act in his stead? He is a man grown and capable, he can fight his own battles. You nor Lydia are more capable than he.

As for the suggestion of you or Tyler to assist Estinien, I felt little harm in alerting him of those whom might be of aid to him. But I can see why it landed poorly. Regardless, neither merited such an egregious response. That you would feel regret, however, speaks volumes from what I have grown to expect from you.

That is a compliment.

But very well. Should Estinien agree, then I see no reason not to make this a truly formal truce. I suppose I am a man who cannot turn down aught so bureaucratic. However, know this: should you betray this in any measure, I will show you no quarter. Even agreeing to this at all is rather generous of me.
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[personal profile] amaure 2020-07-27 06:13 am (UTC)(link)
I am learning more about you in this singular conversation than I have the entirety I have known you, I hope you do realize this. Had you been this agreeable at the first, we might have avoided a lot of strife.

Alas.

But yes, I am a man of my word, particularly of written persuasion. As such, we can settle upon a date for this meeting, and review the final draft. If aught must needs be changed, we can do so there under the impartial scrutiny of our mutual dragoon acquaintance. This is a far better prospect than aught we attempted before.

I daresay, I am impressed.
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[personal profile] amaure 2020-07-27 08:42 am (UTC)(link)
Whether you agree to it or no, personhood is relative. Somehow I doubt all this time you have viewed me as aught more than a fiend, like as not you were none too concerned with considering me a person as well.

If they wish to take part in this, so be it. A week from now should serve our purpose well enough. I shall be certain to keep my schedule clear.

A ground of commonality, then. Amaurotines are ever ones for structure, order, and paperwork. We are people proud of our bureaucratic practices and earnest natures. Little did we must needs rely on magic to bind us to said contracts. Such tricks merely confirm that the party you are binding yourself to is untrustworthy.

You are correct, I will not take any pledge that uses my true name. It is terrible enough as is that such intimate information has been shared with you, and potentially others. For your sake, my name better have ended its transference with you.


[This may be honesty hour, but if Steven knows what's good for him, a white lie may be what he needs to make this truce happen.]
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[personal profile] amaure 2020-07-27 05:57 pm (UTC)(link)
[Yep, just as he suspected, he did not like that. Oh well, at least he's still on board for the truce regardless. It's better that Steven have realistic expectations, either way.]

Very well! Do take care of yourself, Steven.

Till next time.