Despite your shortcomings, Steven, I do like you. I need you to understand the nature of our relationship. I cannot share myself with those I cannot control. I have purposefully placed myself in a position to control you as I need to, but that does afford you the ability to truly see me, Steven.
I don't let many see me. I like to watch, and it does diminish my ability to do that— being seen...
It is not troublesome for you to ask such a straightforward thing of me, I am not forthright with such compliments otherwise. You do have qualities I appreciate and admire. A love for arts, a zest for life, a desire to protect your comrades. These are all positive qualities that you have not yet had the time to fully explore and enforce in your own personality.
I do like you, Steven. At the same time I can be angry with you. Emet-Selch spends quite a lot of time angry or irate with me, yet I am secure that I cannot lose his love so easily. So... be at ease, Steven. I will guide you well.
No, no, I do get it. I'm not used to anger burning so cold that I can't even detect it, but I do get that you can be angry with people you like. I just-- wanted to make sure you liked me at all, I guess. Silly as it is.
And-- I get not wanting to share yourself with people you can't control. I do. Even if it's soft control, like you're doing with me, where you use favors and persuasion and knowledge of my own psyche to manipulate me where you need me to be. That's-- well. I think that's my preferred method, too. Even if there's something nice about the thought of just *making* people do what I want them to, ordering them around and what have you, I *know* that it's not the smart way, nor the best way.
I *am* glad that you like me. And that you're teaching me.
Most people do hate being ordered around. It is best to lead them by the nose without their realization. But if you aren’t careful, manipulation will earn others’ scorn much faster and much more permanently.
I really must insist that you continue to try to get along with Emet-Selch. He really is a very sweet man.
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I don't let many see me. I like to watch, and it does diminish my ability to do that— being seen...
It is not troublesome for you to ask such a straightforward thing of me, I am not forthright with such compliments otherwise. You do have qualities I appreciate and admire. A love for arts, a zest for life, a desire to protect your comrades. These are all positive qualities that you have not yet had the time to fully explore and enforce in your own personality.
I do like you, Steven. At the same time I can be angry with you. Emet-Selch spends quite a lot of time angry or irate with me, yet I am secure that I cannot lose his love so easily. So... be at ease, Steven. I will guide you well.
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And-- I get not wanting to share yourself with people you can't control. I do. Even if it's soft control, like you're doing with me, where you use favors and persuasion and knowledge of my own psyche to manipulate me where you need me to be. That's-- well. I think that's my preferred method, too. Even if there's something nice about the thought of just *making* people do what I want them to, ordering them around and what have you, I *know* that it's not the smart way, nor the best way.
I *am* glad that you like me. And that you're teaching me.
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I really must insist that you continue to try to get along with Emet-Selch. He really is a very sweet man.
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But I'll do my best. At the very *least* I won't be the first foresworn.
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