"I hadn't gone by 'John' in like five years at that point. But every friggin time..." Just to piss him off. Because that had been Tassiter.

"It's pretty hard not to know that about yourself on some level. I mean...you'd gotta have the introspective abilities of a pet rock! I think I was just trying to prove a point? Like I was so great, I didn't have to murder my way to the top...but it was so much easier!"

And he'd had other reasons for holding his darker nature at bay, but that's not something he talks about with anyone. Some things are his and only his.

"It's the law of jungle, babe, that's all it is. And you and me? We're a couple of big old jungle cats!"