I know. I know. I'm working on it, honestly. Along with the cognitive empathy exercises. I don't know if it's apparent yet, but I *am* working on it.
And-- I do understand, I think. I *want* to be a better man. I'm not all that content with the me that I am now.
... although and I hate to ask, because it feels like I'm begging for scraps of compliments, but. *Is* there anything about me as I am now that you find at all... god. I don't even know. Likable. Acceptable. Worthy of attention? Or are you still just doing this because it's better strategically in the long run to turn an enemy into an ally rather than crush them and lose the resource they represent? I guess what I'm wondering is if I'm a fool who's altogether too willing to provide emotional support to someone who doesn't even really like me, just because I like *you* despite myself and also I'm getting something out of it. I guess it doesn't even have to be the me that I am now, it could even be that better man you want me to be, I just.
Fuck. I don't know. I guess it's that I get the impression that Hades actually *likes* Tyler to some degree or did until he hurt you and as he keeps stressing to me, *you* have absolutely no reason to actually like *me*.
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And-- I do understand, I think. I *want* to be a better man. I'm not all that content with the me that I am now.
... although and I hate to ask, because it feels like I'm begging for scraps of compliments, but. *Is* there anything about me as I am now that you find at all... god. I don't even know. Likable. Acceptable. Worthy of attention? Or are you still just doing this because it's better strategically in the long run to turn an enemy into an ally rather than crush them and lose the resource they represent? I guess what I'm wondering is if I'm a fool who's altogether too willing to provide emotional support to someone who doesn't even really like me, just because I like *you* despite myself and also I'm getting something out of it. I guess it doesn't even have to be the me that I am now, it could even be that better man you want me to be, I just.
Fuck. I don't know. I guess it's that I get the impression that Hades actually *likes* Tyler to some degree or did until he hurt you and as he keeps stressing to me, *you* have absolutely no reason to actually like *me*.